I can not even come up with a title for this one
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After a life time of BELIEVING. Dropping belief. No longer believe that there is any solid ground under my feet. No longer believe there will ever be a way to get solid ground under my feet. No longer believe there is even such a thing as solid ground. Homeostasis is the foundation. Homeostasis is a dance. Reason is illusion. Security is a made up word. This one has given up on making sense out of the chaos.
A great and ancient stone knife is cutting through the middle of all things - cutting through the midde of the one doing this writing. Digging and looking - but not seeing anything. In utter darkness and blinding light.
Living in two worlds and now neither one makes sense. Living between the two realities is tearing apart EVERYTHING. No longer having any desire to hold IT together. No longer looking for life to make sense. Running screaming naked and exposed. There is not even a man behind the curtain to blame IT on.
How have those who have come before survived this great and awe-ful tearing apart? This has no reference point.
The scam perpetrated on all of us is tremendous.
Don't follow me, i don't know where i am going. I do know there is tremendous power here but it is all chaotic. I am dangerous. Look out.
i am not manic. i am not depressed. i am not delusional. i am crazy. i am peaceful. i am ordinary.
Maybe i will wake up tomorrow in suberbia in a lounge chair with an umbrella drink in my hand. Maybe but i doubt it.
Great hooves thundering across the plains. The whole earth is shaking now. They are coming.
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Don't be afraid to cry.
It will free your mind of sorrowful thoughts.
-attributed to the Hopi
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Our first teacher is our own heart.
-attributed to the Cheyenne
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You can't wake a person
who is pretending to sleep.
-attributed to the Dine'
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When a man moves away from nature
his heart becomes hard.
-attributed to the Lakota
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